Whenever I feel like I’m a fish out of water, or walking slower behind everyone else. . . Something encouraging happens. Without expectation I open up the pages to my online bubble amidst my dreams, thoughts, feelings and snippets of country life and there, smiling back at me, is a comment. A lovely comment just waiting to be read and filling me up with reasurrace and connection to those who perhaps also walk at the same pace as me, and who do also sometimes feel like a fish out of water . . .
I dearly love to write. I write each day be it with a pen or keyboard or touch phone screen, it is a little some thing just for me to do. I can share who I am, how I think, what I love and then before long a blog post has sprung to life. I’ve caught that idea floating around in my mind and given it breathing space out in the open.
The same happens in my life outside of my blog and website. A few doubts niggle away in my mind, desperately trying to set up home in my uncertain thoughts and then, ping! I receive a lovely message for my little business venture; someone new who would like to join my ponies and I, in leanring to ride and grow with the help of my Meadow Ponies.
I never dreamed it could all come to life so beautifully as it has. It just seems that sometimes my mind forgets that it no longer has to feel afraid and insecure, like it did before my courage was restored and in tact. Like it did when my dream was only that . . . a dream, a lovely idea that had not come to life yet.
Courage isn’t the absence of fear, I am learning that this is oh so true – but despite the worries and overriding doubts, it seems there is always a little encouraging treasure that pops up to reasurrce me. I am indeed getting it right. I am doing it. I’ve found my place. I am creating a life I love – I just have to remember that the seed of doubt is just that little word with a lot of power, confidence. I’m going to do my best to plant the seeds of belief that keep kindly being sent my way, in these trembling moments. I feel they’re a gift. And I love unexpected, thoughtful gestures of kindness, don’t you?
‘ Where there is goodness, there is magic ‘
Cinderella Quote – 2015
Thank you to those who do bestow even the tiniest of kindnessses. It means more than my words could ever express . . .